Change
A word that I don't LOVE but am learning to live with it. The last 6 months or so my mind has been weighed with needing to make a change in my job, this thought was pushed away many times, because I LOVE my job but I HATE leaving Curt and my home and family.Life went on and the thoughts were looming. My unit closed for the second time in 3 months and mad one night and decided to google for RN positions in St. George, no luck. I had never looked at Mesquite before but it was worth a try. I found an ICU RN position and for DAY SHIFT!!! I got really excited and applied.
3 weeks went by and no phone call. I had rationalized why I didn't want the job anyway and also I don't have that much experience (almost 2 years :) and then I received a phone call and they asked me to come in for a peer interview(another story but OMG so scary). Two weeks later I had the interview and it went well, in my mind still telling myself that it was ok to not get the job and don't get too excited. For so long I wanted to be home and it was so close I could touch it but yet it seemed so far away.
I received a phone call at the beginning of January OFFERING me the job. I COULDN'T believe it. I was scared, excited, nervous and sad. I was scared to have to tell my current job. Sad because I did not want to leave my "family" that basically had raised me, helped and taught me everything I know and I just got comfortable in this job, now I will have to learn a new one. UGH. New doctors, new collegues, new policies, new IV pumps, new patient types, etc. BUt the greatest feeling of all EXCITED because I get to be home with my hubby EVERY day!!!! That far out weighs all the other feelings.
All in all I start my new job on Monday. I will be working Per Diem in Las Vegas 3 days a month to keep up my skills. Lets face it Mesquite will not have the same acutity of patients :) But I will be working day shift and again will be HOME everyday!!!!
So here is to CHANGE!! I am jumping in both feet first.
